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08 September 2003 @ 10:08 am
I now own underwear in various shades of blue.  
This entry seems like it's just never going to get written. Thus far, Marvin has frozen, I've had to restart, and we had an unexpected power outage last night (thanks hypertechie for waking me up before class) ... guh! I shall post, I shall, nothing will stop me!

People have noticed that something is "off" with me as of late, and they're probably right. I haven't been as happy as I was ... something hasn't been in place since ... well, summer, probably. It feels like I've gotten worse somehow (or perhaps I'm more aware of the situation now than I was because I'm actually interacting with people). I feel like I'm handling life like a one-footed duck in water; though I float, I essentially can't help going in circles.

My memory has been rather alarming lately. I don't remember taking my medicine. I don't remember my alarm clock going off or turning it off, and sometimes I can't remember if I did or did not set it the night before. I've missed one class because I forgot all about it, and I can't say if I've attended all meetings I've scheduled or not, because I honestly don't know.

The sad thing about missing class was, I missed a class that I like. I forgot completely about something that I enjoy participating in. And when I say "I don't remember," though it does mean that I've forgotten, it means more than that. Sometimes I can't even place where I was or what I was doing when I should have been doing something else. I've been more withdrawn lately, and I tend to regularly oversleep - something I haven't done since high school, when I was at my lowest. I don't think I am as bad as I was ... but still ... these new developments bug me.

Things aren't all bad, though. On Saturday, I hung out with Kat in the Media Center and met some new people, including a guy who gave me Animal Crossing tips (he had the entire chess set), was amusing to be around, and complimented me. I like meeting new people when they are kind.

I have this sudden desire to print out every entry I've written since I started this journal, to see how much I've put into it ... I imagine such a project would take a while. In the meantime, I'm going to do homework and play a bit of Animal Crossing before my next class.
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: "Rose of May," Nobuo Uematsu
Kain aka That Evil Guynanikore on September 8th, 2003 12:15 pm (UTC)
One annoying thing about having a crappy memory is having to constantly search for spare pieces of paper to write things down on, and then later search in vain for the same pieces of paper that was apparently misplaced right after being written on.
Emily: goddessetoileeyes on September 9th, 2003 02:36 pm (UTC)
Hihi hun, i hope things are going better for you as you get further into the semester. I know what you mean about the alarm clock thing. I had a period of like a month or two where I had to set like three alarms to make sure I was up because I couldn't remember setting or not setting them and missing so much class and work. Then suddenly I didn't need to do it anymore.. I don't remember what changed but it just stopped. I don't know anyhow.. I also wanted to say that even though I trip to Otakon wasn't our bestest con ever it brought me to the realization that I miss your friendship Anne. I miss having you within the vicinity for an Anime-fest or when I need a non-reality/reality check... Anyhow.. I was thinking maybe sometime next summer you can come out and stay with me in PA for like a week or two and it'd be fun. I hope that we can keep in better contact this year!! and I'm looking forward to our next con. I'm going to try again and be more vigilant with this livejournal thing because I think it's good for one's psyche. Anyhow, you have my phone # and email address if you ever need the advice of a tall person lol... or whatever... and if you lost my Phone # I can give it to you again... Talk to you soon I hope.
One Who Wanders: illabiona on September 10th, 2003 08:23 pm (UTC)
Dude, I am SO there. (I can use the nice Ohio rest stops as additional trip incentives!) We should check out Squirrel Hill. XD