One Who Wanders (abiona) wrote,
One Who Wanders

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I now own underwear in various shades of blue.

This entry seems like it's just never going to get written. Thus far, Marvin has frozen, I've had to restart, and we had an unexpected power outage last night (thanks hypertechie for waking me up before class) ... guh! I shall post, I shall, nothing will stop me!

People have noticed that something is "off" with me as of late, and they're probably right. I haven't been as happy as I was ... something hasn't been in place since ... well, summer, probably. It feels like I've gotten worse somehow (or perhaps I'm more aware of the situation now than I was because I'm actually interacting with people). I feel like I'm handling life like a one-footed duck in water; though I float, I essentially can't help going in circles.

My memory has been rather alarming lately. I don't remember taking my medicine. I don't remember my alarm clock going off or turning it off, and sometimes I can't remember if I did or did not set it the night before. I've missed one class because I forgot all about it, and I can't say if I've attended all meetings I've scheduled or not, because I honestly don't know.

The sad thing about missing class was, I missed a class that I like. I forgot completely about something that I enjoy participating in. And when I say "I don't remember," though it does mean that I've forgotten, it means more than that. Sometimes I can't even place where I was or what I was doing when I should have been doing something else. I've been more withdrawn lately, and I tend to regularly oversleep - something I haven't done since high school, when I was at my lowest. I don't think I am as bad as I was ... but still ... these new developments bug me.

Things aren't all bad, though. On Saturday, I hung out with Kat in the Media Center and met some new people, including a guy who gave me Animal Crossing tips (he had the entire chess set), was amusing to be around, and complimented me. I like meeting new people when they are kind.

I have this sudden desire to print out every entry I've written since I started this journal, to see how much I've put into it ... I imagine such a project would take a while. In the meantime, I'm going to do homework and play a bit of Animal Crossing before my next class.

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