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19 December 2004 @ 12:22 am
I feel as though something between my ears will cease to exist when I graduate. It's strangely difficult to envision a "me" without a school in the equation. School has dominated, created, and supported me. I don't know if I can function without school. What if school is my function?

I closed my account at the local bank, and realized how very little money I have left. The fact that I can hold it all in my hand is rather unsettling; my family wants me to be an "independent person" now that I have completed college, but how on earth am I supposed to procure shelter away from them with so little savings left?

I have a little list of cities and a little list of schools that I can't afford to visit. Would I like to leave home? Hell yes ... if three months over the summer spent alone in the Midwest can send me spiraling into depression, what will returning there in the winter, with no money, and people hounding me to get out, do to me?

It all starts tomorrow.
Current Mood: numbnumb
Current Music: Love Spirals Downward - Depression Glass
Fishkayay on December 19th, 2004 06:29 am (UTC)
It won't cease to exist, but it may slowly wither; often I feel like that. (I'm a bundle of cheer and hope, aren't I? Bad bad Kayay!)

If you're ever in the NW feel free to pester me.
the ali: tiessingingraisin on December 19th, 2004 07:19 am (UTC)
hmm... midwest? I think you should take some time to visit me in Wisconsin. I know a place to get really good pie. ^^
Giang (yang): Meececometeoraine on December 19th, 2004 05:54 pm (UTC)
Congratulations on graduating college.

I feel the same way when I think about my graduation from college. School too has dominated my life, more than enough, and so I'm afraid that I can't function like everyone else without school. The thought is very intimidating. And not having enough money to support yourself and support from immediate family members once you graduate will prove things to be difficult. It may not look good, but perhaps you have friends who would be willing to help you out given that you ask them?

Whatever happens, I hope to see you succeed as an artist.
Miss Belldandy: AAHHH!!kurthy133 on December 19th, 2004 06:22 pm (UTC)
Life is a very intimidating thing - just take things one step at a time. <3

Good luck <3
hypertechiehypertechie on December 19th, 2004 08:25 pm (UTC)
you can always stay with me in the NE
i'm sure we could find you a job somewhere.
Liz: *muah!*ladyaltara on December 20th, 2004 05:27 pm (UTC)
You could come visit us in PA, near Philly ^_^
I hope you don't get too down, and I hope things improve for you, soon!
Kain aka That Evil Guy: moonanikore on December 22nd, 2004 06:55 pm (UTC)
Don't worry, there's life after school. I swear.