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24 January 2005 @ 02:23 pm
"If your company makes the noble sacrifice of hiring me, you'll save a vast amount of sanity."  
I don't really know how long I've been off my medication at this point. I have absolutely zero grasp of time; since I have no schedule as I used to, the only way I recognize the day is because my computer tells me what it is. If my computer suddenly got smart and lied, I'd be screwed.

Some people say I am incapable of making rational decisions when I am not on medication. I disagree. In the years prior to taking medicine, I made a good deal of rational decisions and thus lived to see the day where I did take meds and made better decisions more often. Besides, if we're going to get technical about it, what is "rational" truly varies on the definition of the individual. If they said I was "incapable of making decisions in a pleasant mindset," however, I'd agree with that.

One thing I have noticed is that without meds, I have become significantly more irritable and prone to tears. I am to the point where I am screaming at resume sites which ask for information I don't know, or which fizzle out on me after I spend like, half an hour putting information into every little slot on the page. The Word program also causes me to shriek profanities at the computer and hit my keyboard in useless fury. The fact that my resume does not travel well from Word to other programs and looks really shitty and even worse than it did in Word to begin with causes me endless frustration. I am really pissy and about to cry right now. Word makes me want to cause physical harm to all things.

The lady at the bank is gone every damn time I call. Helloooo I want the job. ;_; The newspaper hasn't called me back either. HELLOOO CALL ME. It seems I may be doomed to being a secretary, or something.

As oneautumnday posted, I am unable to come to Katsucon. singingraisin and erikadoor, can we do our MKR group next year? I was really looking forward to it.

But in good news, I am moving in March, providing I don't bash my head in with my keyboard prior to that.
Current Mood: infuriatedinfuriated
Current Music: "Save Me," Aimee Mann
Ng-Master.  I prefer Dave, David, or DN.ngmaster on January 24th, 2005 11:28 pm (UTC)
I wish I could do something for you job-wise from over here. Hope the hunt goes well. Also, good luck on your upcoming move in March too!

I'm sorry to hear you cannot make it to Katsucon. I'll miss you over there.

Kain aka That Evil Guy: moonanikore on January 25th, 2005 01:25 am (UTC)

Emily: goddessetoileeyes on January 25th, 2005 05:59 am (UTC)
Hey hun. I'm back in Indiana, feel free to get in touch with me. I'd help with the job hunt if I could hire you, but Josh is looking for a Job out here as well and there just isn't much. Where are you moving by the way? Email me!! Sorry to hear about Katsu, I know you were looking forward to it. I'm sure you're bound to find something soon!
Auturgist: Me @ Kawisaki Cafeauturgist on January 27th, 2005 06:58 pm (UTC)
Yo! You! When you get this, make haste in contacting me. You know my AIM name, but if necessary you can e-mail me or call my cell at 410-371-0547. Trust me, you want to hear what I've gotta offer. ^_^
One Who Wanders: gorillafaceabiona on January 27th, 2005 10:27 pm (UTC)
I'm having a bit of a firewall issue that's preventing me from logging onto AIM ... so heads up, an email is coming your way.
taintbunny on January 30th, 2005 07:00 pm (UTC)
Pills ...
I can relate a bit to the medication issue. When medicated (despite the positive effects) I feel bland & I know it is not me but the pills people are interacting with. I'd rather be myself.