It seems foolish to be in denial about an escape, doesn't it?
For a while there, I thought I could be a casual player, one who logs in every now and then. But FFXI is a time sink, and you can't really progress without participating in the world on a daily basis. Plants require your attention at least once per day, so you can't garden at all if it's just "every now and then." Since it takes a shitload of EXP to level as you get higher, you can't advance at a discernible rate if you do not put countless hours into the process. Then, how does one obtain money or good gear if one does not participate in time consuming quests or farming? (Last year, Sleepga II cost over one million gil on the Fairy server. It was either that or doing weeks of questing to get it!)
Being a "career black mage" was fun when I had no job in real life, but now ... I have no in-game drive, and subsequently, the casual approach got thrown out the window. I simply never play. There is little point in paying for a game that just sits there, like it's been doing for the last half year while I convinced myself that yeah, I was going to log in eventually. I've realized that no, I'm not going to log in, or if I do, it won't be for very long ... and there are definitely other things I would rather be doing with my money!
So today, I finally canceled my Play Online IDs and uninstalled FFXI ... in theory, for good (especially since I had to update for over an hour to do so!). Hobbies change, and while I am still a gamer, my MMORPG era really does seem to be over.
Hahahaha! I think my father just tried to avoid paying for plane tickets to the wedding on the grounds of being an Internet idiot. I told him I'd email him a Travelocity tutorial, and talk him through it if he needed. Evasion denied!
In attire news, I obtained a pair of cute (and fortunately on clearance) shoes yesterday. They'll bring me up to a grand total of five foot six, which I hope will make me look a little less like an angry midget when I stand next to my tall cousins.
Found this on my desktop, and I had to share.
abiona (5:58:30 PM): Sure it's a good excuse ... when you run out of tape.
silvermask (5:58:46 PM): We have some kind of tape quote don't we?
abiona (5:59:00 PM): The chances by now are pretty high.
silvermask (5:59:08 PM): Yes, we do
silvermask (5:59:13 PM): "This is going to take a damn lot of tape"