One Who Wanders (abiona) wrote,
One Who Wanders

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Next time I agree to draw a baseball player, please stop me.

It is one of those nights where you can sit for hours, simply studying the play of moonlight on the clouds.


For the past few days, I have been going through periods where I can hear more constant low-level background noise, such as the running of air conditioners, the hum of distant vehicles, etc. than I am usually aware of. Well, perhaps not more, but it seems significantly louder. These moments will end abruptly, much like the way my hearing aid will cut off when the battery runs out. The strange thing here is that my battery has not run out and the whole unit is, as far as I can tell, still functioning. This infusion of background sound will gradually return to me ... but I will not be conscious of the increase until it again vanishes. Is the hearing aid really still working properly? Or is the problem in my ear? I have no way of knowing.

Back in college, I used to have these "twinges," which were seconds in which my body would flutter or thrum, a sensation I felt most strongly in my heart, lips and general senses. They would occasionally be strong enough to disturb my balance, but I was fairly good at covering when that happened ... it was only a moment, a beat in a step ... let momentum carry you and keep looking forward! I have determined that these were/are very likely a result of suddenly dropping or altering my medication routine. My supply has been empty the past couple of days, and the twinges have returned to me. I did not take my meds regularly while in college. Is this a coincidence? The possibility here makes me wonder just how accustomed or dependent my body has become to regular doses.


I tend to avoid feminine attire in favor of practicality and comfort, so the sight of me in heels and a skirt is usually enough to cause my coworkers to trip over themselves in shock. It's rather funny to see.


Someone has to explain something to me. How ... just how is it actually possible that people will ask for and other folks will pay $100 dollars or more per bikini piece? I could make an entire costume for that amount, so to get a mere three scraps of fabric with a couple ties or fasteners of some sort seems a daft decision. With my Speedos, I was content paying around $60 because I knew I was getting quality - all but one of them are still around and are in damn good shape for their age. (The sole exception is the first year I was on a swim team with a "uniform," and at the time I did not know how to take care of the suit properly.) But a bikini? Over $100? Are you nuts?

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