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30 May 2002 @ 07:36 pm
 
I keep on waiting and waiting for that name to appear on my door, the creaking door, Arial font. In black and white the arrival should be announced though it has not yet come to be, and in black and white we frame the situation. We tell ourselves that there can be only one acceptable, right answer. We say that there is a right and there is a wrong, absolutes.

And maybe because of this, no one can stay. There is no one there. I keep on waiting and waiting for the name to appear on my door, the creaking door, Arial font. I am lonely. I cannot reach past this door of mine. The arrival of that name which I so wish to see there seems to not be in the cards tonight, but the tears are. I'm crying though I wish I weren't, my head feels thick and ribcage constricting.

I keep on waiting and waiting for that name to appear on my door, the creaking door, Arial font. I check the door, there is still no name. I die again and again in Ragnarok to pass the time and then I check my door again; vacant, the spot that I have kept open there has not been filled.
 
 
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Current Music: lonely, paranoid, crushed, confused, crappy, discontent
 
 
 
ex_jean on May 30th, 2002 02:27 pm (UTC)
Nyu... :hug: What's wrong? I know this is probably so private to you... but I want to help if I can... You've made me smile so much, and I want to help you out in any way I can...
One Who Wandersabiona on May 31st, 2002 07:00 am (UTC)
It's going to be a tough period, but I'll make it through. ^_^ Thanks muchly for your concern, I do appreciate it.

Hey, we should set up the Munak Star Bar and Grille sometime. Or maybe we could make it a travelling affair, and camp out in each town for awhile, and then move on to spread the Cajun-cookin, drink-dealing fun. ^_^
a_for_anonymous on June 1st, 2002 01:21 am (UTC)
I know how frustrating that is. *sigh* This is why, at least, the phone means you can hail them... depends if you know his number, or have any means to call.
I hope you come out of all of this happy as can be.