I'm in the middle of a panic/anxiety attack, and it prevents me from focusing clearly. My chest is tight, my throat clogged, my behavior uneasy, and my mind worried sick. I should be studying for my Non-Western Art History midterm, but concern over an assignment that I will not have done tomorrow for my second class drives me insane and far from the canons of Chinese ink painting. I had thought that because of the drastic alteration in schedule (teacher's wife had a baby), we did not have to have it completed ... but here is someone from my class, working on the very same assignment. Was I wrong? What will happen to me if I don't have it done? Will I be embarrassed in class? What about my grade?
There is no "get it done tomorrow morning before class," because there is no time tomorrow. No time, Mondays are busy busy; they keep me running from 8 to 10 with small breaks for meals ... and I have a large amount of homework due on Tuesday that needs to be done Monday night, as well. What should I do? What should I do? I feel like I'm going to implode.
Given that they increased my Zoloft dosage due to the bad times I've been having recently (I guess the larger amount hasn't kicked in yet? Must not've. Hello, PANIC, PANIC), I have this paranoia that if my moods continue to deteriorate, they'll start drugging me up on more potent things until I can't see straight anymore.