One Who Wanders (abiona) wrote,
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Which Azumanga Daioh Character are you?

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::cracks up:: Now I just need to see this series ... for the curious, "Sakaki" has been my username for about four years. Now that I'm aware a character in a show shares the name, I'm paranoid that people will start snapping it up on forums I haven't joined. ;_; It's kind of weird, but ... when I am not "Sakaki" at any particular forum, I tend to visit that forum less. o_O

I had another set of unsuccessful negotations with my teachers the other day (again, concerning GPA). I term them "unsuccessful" because I do not believe that I communicated my fears to them accurately, nor did I get my grades changed. XP They keep on telling me that I should worry about the qualitative aspects and not the quantitative (grades, GPA, numbers, and so on), that in fact I should ignore the quantitative and focus on learning as much as I can/getting into the spirit/making art/whatever. That's all fine and dandy, but I feel as though the quantitative has a definite impact on the qualitative. The more I worry about my grades and scholarships, the more I feel it has an effect on the quality my work (when I think things are hopeless, I tend to put in less good ol' time and effort). And I'm sorry, but going into the probationary period (they call it a "semester of grace," hah hah hah) on the GPA dependent scholarships which pay for over half of my tuition would make me FREAK OUT! And knowing that I CAN'T get the A that I NEED in your class (classes which I am REQUIRED to take) to raise my GPA back up again would frustrate the hell out of me.

They tell me that I'm not the first student with these problems. I didn't think I was, but since that is indeed the case - why aren't you more receptive to my worries!? I hate it when people try to smooth things over without really getting to the root of the problem, or just writing the fears off as something that a paranoid mind has come up with. They think that because they've seen one case, they've seen it all. Well, no. What works to soothe one individual will not necessarily work on another, and thus you come off as unresponsive, unwilling to listen.

Perhaps I am being overly paranoid, but my fears are not based in whimsy. They are the result of a fact that you and I created. You and I made this paper record that will trail behind me for far longer than you care to admit, yet you tell me to disregard it? You tell me to ignore it because you are thinking of my education and my future. I am telling you that I can't ignore it because I am thinking of the same things.

You and all that those who came before you have made sure that my life is a worthwhile one, and one that bodes well for my future only when I make and maintain good grades and participation. You are telling me to shun the system when I am still trapped within it. I wish I could, but too much holds me to it - so help me! Understand that I do not wish to hear how I should break away, because I know that I cannot do so just yet. What I want is for you to help me find the way to manipulate the system. The hidden hand, the power behind the throne ... I want you to teach me the quiet way to work past my GPA. You will give me a far greater freedom.

Oh yeah, and I'm home for Winter Break now.

... I'm simply not going to do your homework for you. You are not the first person that I've turned down, and chances are that you will not be the last. It seems that those who are not familiar with my work habits are the ones who inquire ... in real life, it only takes one glimpse of my doodle covered notes for them to know that I probably just don't give a damn (how I succeed anyway is anybody's guess).

You will have my sympathy, but not my words ... and since those are what you want, you might as well just not ask me.

Person: hae you redad To Kill a Mockingbird?
Sakaki: Yes, I have.
Person: good
Person: what do you know about it?
Sakaki: Why do you ask?
Person: I have to write stuff on the first22 chapters
Sakaki: Have you read the first 22 chapters?
Person: nope
Sakaki: Then I recommend you do so.
Person: well it is due tomorrow
Person: 3rd hour
Person: lol
Sakaki: Then you'd better start reading fast, and make good skimming choices. XP

Ah, I remember my group's report on "To Kill a Mockingbird." We started off with a talk-show setting, and soon progressed into a rousing rendition of the Lumberjack song from Monty Python, with "To Kill a Mockingbird" themed lyrics. The sing-a-long session with the class went surprisingly well ... you would never have guessed, looking at some of those people, that "Monty Python" exists in suburban Catholic preppy America.

... so yeah, you want me to do your homework, why ...?

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