One Who Wanders (abiona) wrote,
One Who Wanders
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Percussion rocks sternums
screaming? snares and
cymbals ring in my ears
the deaf side hears
nothing but wind and static
it's clearer when plugged

this has ceased to be fun
(gone on for too damn long)

...

Can't put feet on seats.
Ushers must think
that I hide the power of the Hulk.

...

"Science of Attraction"
Longer socks or shave my ankles,
pockets or men.
Quite a conundrum.




I have three new peeves, or rather peeves that I've probably always had, but just recently had occasion to think about. The first one is this: even if I support the cause for which you are selling them, I am being honest when I say that I really don't want to buy a chocolate vagina on a stick. I just don't.

Second, people who "don't credit" artwork properly. Recently, I've seen two different people try to pass off a well-known fanwork as their own, through the oh so subtle process of omitting the true artist's name. The same picture has popped up in the FFVII community, and I had a knee-jerk reaction when I saw it. x_x I still think that it might have been helpful had the person stated where they found the image ... otherwise, I've found that people tend to assume that the work is of the hands who post it.

And finally, I am annoyed by people who don't read the damn rules before joining a community - any community. If the so-called "announcements list" says no discussion should take place there, then don't discuss. If the "[Insert Whatever Here] Community" says no spamming, then do not post about your newly created community, or your "original" fanart, or your new website, or whatever. If it is clearly stated that a community is for one thing and one thing only, do not post about a completely unrelated, different thing. Ok, I'm done now. You get the idea - the rules apply to you too, so don't be mad at me when I go about pointing that out privately. XP

Today, figure drawing ... was stressful. After the class concluded, I felt completely exhausted, and every joint ached. You see, many things happened today ... first, we moved on into the next section of the syllabus, self portraits. I have yet to master Degas, though it has been three weeks ... and a portfolio is coming due in two, and I must have Degas-styled stuff in there. Worse yet, apparently my recent work has been of such a nature that he is worried enough to ask me to bring in my stuff and talk to him prior to next class. I knew that I was stuck, but I didn't think I was that stuck ... he wants to know why I do this.

I've got a day to figure the world out. x_x

While we were drawing, I was exasperated and wrote a "poem" of sorts on the work I was attempting. This sort of thing isn't unusual for me ... every teacher has noticed that I tend to write all over my work, and fellow students see that I draw all over my notes. To me, drawing and writing are not separate things.

I don't have a world to change
No message to bring
Neither advocate
nor follower

But this particular snippet led to an entire discussion which I felt most stressful, and culminated in a comment "I think you have something to say, but you have yet to give yourself permission to say it." He also warned me to stay away from "computer stuff," because apparently, it will completely screw me over.

But how can I diassociate myself from computer stuff ...? I am in constant contact with people who do it, I critique in forums of it, and I experiment with it off and on. What does he mean by "computer stuff," anyway? Is the scope as limited as the anime community that I've written to him about, or is it wider? I suspect that it is the former, but how can I avoid anime-style when I do not wish to rid myself of it? I find it beautiful, and it is something I see every day. Hey, why does it have to screw me over? Why can't I find a way to join it with other things? If I can be allowed to integrate text into my art, why not anime? I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS LIMITATION THAT YOU'VE PLACED UPON ME! ::shakes fists:: Not that I have any clue as to how I'd go about defying such a strongly-held belief that many professionals have, but ... whatever.
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    I'd say I burned out on LJ there, but I wasn't exactly on fire to begin with ...

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    I'd say I burned out on LJ there, but I wasn't exactly on fire to begin with ...

  • the internet, it is breaking

    At the rate I'm going, I wonder if I should just give up the ghost and sell all the fabric/patterns I've been carting around for years. Teaching plus…

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    The kittens are watching my mouse cursor and/or my text appearing as I type. Their heads are moving in unison. It is so cute. I just can't see what…