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02 April 2003 @ 09:50 pm
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You know, I've never liked April Fool's Day, and I refuse to willingly or knowingly participate in it as anything other than just a regular day. "Celebrating" April Fool's has never been a pleasant occasion for me, because:

- Nothing anybody says on that day can be taken seriously. It's tiresome to have to go and reevaluate everything just to make sure that people are being stupid in one way or another (which you should probably already have guessed, but you like to give 'em the benefit of the doubt anyway).
- I will not be taken seriously when I write or speak.
- Good god, people, you already know I'm gullible! You know I've always been and probably always will be, so just leave me alone about it, goddamn you! ::shakes fist::

Anyway ...

It really is amazing how much certain people can cause your mood to just take a nosedive off the proverbial cliff/ledge/edge/wherever. Post Choir, I was on a high - for it had finally returned to me. I had overcome the mental barrier I had set up somewhere along the line, and I was singing high As and Bs again. They weren't great, but hell, they were there. I had said to myself, "you know what, you sang that note when you warmed up this morning. You sang it long ago. So sing it now. Sing it in the song. JUST DO IT!" And, lo and behold, I did.

So, I was really happy after Choir. The winds were strong and that was all right, because I love the feel of gliding my hands along as though they were in water, ribbons of air trailing behind me and caressing my palms.

But Mr. K and Mr. J. almost always join us for dinner. And though I like to think of myself as an open-minded, accepting person, I've never really cared for either of them. My attitude towards them is usually cool at best, and completely cold and disregarding at the worst. Mr. K in particular has become harder to tolerate as of late, and the knowledge that others don't much like him either doesn't make it any easier to try to see his virtues.

He upsets me on many levels. He also calls into question the balance between the good of the individual, and the good of the group. I recognize that it would be better for him if we involved him in our activities, yet I also see that whenever he's around, the group becomes more tense, has less fun, and is more easily annoyed. So whose interests should I act in?

He's hard to deal with, because he doesn't really deal with himself. His reactions are extreme, his social skills low. He is annoying, and sometimes embarrassing to be with in public. I have yet to find some redeeming trait that would make up for the times he's thrown loud, plate-shattering fits in the school cafeteria, or given me those odd death-glares, or made some comment that everybody wanted to either smack him for or walk away from.

He wound up sitting next to me at dinner this evening, so my mood rather quickly deteriorated. XP

In other news, I still haven't hung my laundry. I've done three additional loads, though.
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
Current Music: Berserk - Waiting So Long
Alexander Williamszamiel on April 2nd, 2003 07:57 pm (UTC)
You know, every time I read "Mr. K" and the like, I'm reminded of 18th cent novels:
Lord K____ and Mister W____ attended salon today. I don't really fancy their plebian ways, but we have a responsibility to the lower classes, do we not?
Not to say I think you're being a snobby bitch, its only that I think I'd prefer it if you were. :)
Look at Me, I'm a Winner!: Apprehensive (by Kitsune_Rei)shippo on April 2nd, 2003 08:17 pm (UTC)
I also greatly dislike the annual "Avoid Websites Day." =/
reekashininreekashinin on April 2nd, 2003 09:03 pm (UTC)
aaah...i feel for you very deeply in all respects hun.

April fools has fallen greatly from what it was originally, if it still held some mediocrity of what it once was, i probably wouldn't be against it, but as it is, i try very hard to completley forget that it exists^_^

As for the"socially-challenged"(as I like to call them) friend, We've all dealt with them at some time or another.
I've seen WAAAY more than my fair share of them in my short time.
The fact of the matter is, i still haven't figured them out...I've tried very very hard...but it eludes me, my mind just can't grasp how they think.
Because unlike most people, who LEARN while in a social situation through trial and error, what is and is NOT socially acceptable in certain groups. These people seem to be absolutely in-capable of doing this, they do something, and if it dosn't work, they feel inclined ta just do it again...and again...and again...and...you get my point...
If it isn't one of THOSE then usually its the OTHER kind, the ones that seem to THINK that their the social KING/QUEEN and that everything evolves around them, and whatever the hell it is their doing right then at that very moment(what makes it even worse is if their one of the socially-challenged who get extremely upset if the convo, wanders away from THEM...*shivers*)

anyway, I wish I had a solution to give to you, but in all the cases that i've encountered...nothing ever seems to work, except for maybe just plain blocking them out altogether, which i know for a fact your to nice ta do(because i've been in your place and i couldn't do it either, its hard for the rejects to reject someone...not saying your a reject but you get the point^_^)

Well, if theres anything else ya need ta talk about...just write on...maybe some more specifics would help...or not, maybe it would just help ya vent...either way, be good hun.
Katenyxdae on April 4th, 2003 09:28 am (UTC)
He is very complicated.