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07 April 2003 @ 08:29 pm
Well, I've finally seen Seiso Hen, the OAVs that "end it all" for the Rurouni Kenshin series. Kenshin's life is ultimately so damn tragic, it really hurts. More thoughts on these last OAVs later, perhaps ...

You cannot separate the shadow self from your personality; rather you must learn to integrate all your facets, or suffer the consequences.

Class voice, in what cannot be a surprise to anyone, annoyed me again today. Having realized that this is actually not our last song to sing (there's another for a final, more "professional" recital at night), I spoke with her a second time about singing a song of my own choice, and again got nowhere. I suppose I simply fail to accept her arguments ... though I understand them well enough. I have to grant that she's being very even and cool when I bug her about this, but all the same I disagree with much of what she says.

What I shall rant about in the following paragraphs will probably come across as self-righteous to you ... but if you know me, you're aware that's not a conscious part of my personality. Right now, I feel as though I am trying to learn how to express confidence in my abilities without annoying people, so please bear with me as I work my way through via trial and error. This is along those lines, although it will always be bitchier than I intended, because in all honesty, I am really disappointed that I cannot sing some of these songs.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to go beyond the numbers, she says, nothing wrong at all with wanting to be challenged. But it's too late.

Bah humbug to that line of thought, I say! I don't believe that it's too late. (Given some of the intense week sessions I've put myself through before in order to master something right before a contest, this "quickness" of class is nothing.) I am familiar enough with each song I chose and am capable of pulling off nearly anything I choose. We're not even halfway through April yet, for cripes sakes! I can start now on a song I want in addition to the one I have to sing this time, and I'll continue it for the next time! But no.

"Had I known," she said, "that you had background in singing," things might have been different. Well, I'm telling you point blank now, so be flexible enough to deviate from your master plan just a little bit, will you? But she can't do that, because if she lets me choose my own song, then she has to let everybody. Bullshit. If you say that the reason you won't let 100 level students select their own pieces is because of inexperience, then follow through with that. If they are inexperienced, then that's that. If they are experienced though forced to sign up at a lower level because they are not officially a part of the school of music, then follow through with what you say! Change your ways!

I have been singing my entire life. I have been through formal, fairly strict training for seven years. Since watching my voice vanish and return, I have become well acquainted with what singing can do for me, with what I can do for it. I know my limits, and I know what will challenge me and expand my range and skill.

But challenge isn't really the point of this class. She said so.

She also kept on emphasizing performance polish to me, over and over again, repeating that the final song had to be selected from the ones we had "worked on" before, and taken to a new level. We, now knowing all the basics, have to add polish to the piece for performance.

It was hard not to make some bitter face when she was talking like this, was hard to look like I knew nothing and was interested in this new development. But behind my apparent guise of ineptness, I am a gal who has picked out and gone over every damn detail down to matching my shoes and earrings to the song I sing. I know polish. I have been trained in the art of polish. I am skilled in the art of elegantly handling details. My mother, my voice teachers, and my former accompanist (a professional pianist with a gusty personality and an affinity for accessories) would see to nothing less.

/rant, for now

I swear I'll find a more positive entry within myself soon. ::laughs::
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: Seiso Hen is playing ... again.
seppukudoll on April 8th, 2003 04:05 am (UTC)
after i watched seiso hen, I completely detest Kaoru. She's an evil bitchy woman! How can she forget about their son? the LIVING symbol and proof of their love? She throws that all away. ;_;
One Who Wanders: ackabiona on April 8th, 2003 08:15 am (UTC)
She is anything but an evil bitchy woman! And she definitely does not forget about Kenji! Before Kenji was older, all she could do was "raise this baby safely and let him [Kenshin]leave the house with a smile." Kenji has since grown and has left her, and so now all she can do is wait for Kenshin to come home.

She doesn't throw everything away. ;_;
SD: Angrysado_nishi on April 11th, 2003 04:41 am (UTC)
Nooo! No one should watch Seisouhen! I can't believe it got released in the US... Cause now everyone will watch it and not know how the Jinchuu Arc is supposed to really go!

- Enishi has 5 other comrades.
- Kaoru's "death" was one of the most important parts in that arc, and apparently that was left out of Seisouhen.
- Sano, Yahiko, Saitou, Aoshi, Misao, and Megumi were all involved at the end when Kenshin went to the island.
- Kenshin does not die.
- There is absolutely no way of cramming 5 volumes of manga in such a short OAV series, and still keep it decent. As much as I love Enishi, I would've rather them not have animated it at all if they were going to do it so cheaply.

A shitload of things happen in the Jinchuu Arc that weren't even in the OAVs. Point is, they totally fucked over the story and I know I'm not the only who hates Seisouhen. Everyone who watches that should at least check out the manga too...

Sorry for this rant, but Seisouhen pisses me off to no end.
One Who Wanders: stupidabiona on April 11th, 2003 08:20 am (UTC)
I was surprised that it was only two episodes. o_o

Is this mysterious disease that they have present in the Jinchuu arc ...? And thank god Kenshin doesn't die in the manga. It was such a horribly sad way to end that. x_X

Seisouhen has one thing going for it, at least - the moment when they flash back to Saitou pulling out his sword, he looks so frickin' evil, it's wonderful. XD
SD: Blahsado_nishi on April 11th, 2003 11:43 am (UTC)
Re: Phew.
No, they only talk about Kenshin's body being worn out and not going to be able to fight any longer. So he gives up his sakabatou to Yahiko. He doesn't fucking die though. Talk about major melodramaticism...

Yeah, I was one of those who constantly whined back then for the Jinchuu Arc to be animated, since it wasn't in the TV series. But argh! >_<